Oh life...

So this past week has been a little hard for me. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I am in full blown family withdrawal. It is really hard to be on vacation with your family for practically a month and some how magically return to normal life...especially when you return during a blizzard. I miss hanging out with everyone and forgetting about all of my worries. I miss walking around in Disneyworld and feeling the tiny hand of one of my nephews creep into my own. I miss always having things planned all day everyday and never being bored. But most of all I miss my family and the feeling of absolute acceptance.
Lately I have been feeling like everyone is moving on and I am being left behind. There is little difference between my life now and my life while I was in high school. Yeah I have matured and grown up but other then that things are pretty much the same. So I have made it a goal of mine to try and do something new every day. Like on Saturday, I was sick of being the third wheel or going to bed at 10pm just because everyone else is! (Yeah ridiculous! I know) So I went to a party, by myself. It was pretty uncomfortable at first...but after a while I met some new people, talked to some old friends I hadn't seen in a while and genuinely had a good time. Way better then sitting at home and watching a movie by myself. So whats my new thing for today? Writing this. Normally I would never share my feelings like this, I like to keep things to myself. But rather then trying to go ahead with this week with this bottled below the surface I decided to get it out of the way! I'm not looking for a pity party, actually that is the last thing I am looking for. I am just ready to move on.